If 2020 has taught us anything. It is to expect the unexpected. When we all rang in the new year at midnight and declared it 2020, I know that I went into the next day, thinking that this year was going to be amazing. At the time, there was nothing to worry about! My family was doing well. Work was excellent, and my apartment was perfect, my cats were healthy. There wasn’t anything else a girl could ask for to start the year.
Then Covid-19 came to crash the party, and I quickly remembered that no matter how much we plan for things. It doesn’t always mean things will go the way we expected them, and 2020 has done exactly that. I don’t have to tell you what’s been going on. If you watch the news for 5 minutes a day (Maybe even less), you will find out pretty quickly whats going on in the world. For anyone avoiding the news, Let me put it simply for you…
Its nothing good
Now I know this is my second post, and I started my other post by saying I wanted this to be a positive space where we can learn together and grow, and that’s what this post is about more than anything. The fact is, things are bad right now for everyone for one reason or another, and what we all need to do is learn and grow. We need to find a way to be better people, be better friends to one another and show that we care. Everyone is struggling, but some may be struggling more than you. It is up to each of us to find a way to help those around us feel loved, supported, respected, valued, honored, hopeful, and cared for.
Now the question is… what can I do? The best answer I can offer is to reach out to someone that you know is having a hard time, get involved with an organization as a volunteer, help a friend, make a donation, pay it forward at the drive-through (Don’t know if that’s what people are calling it, but the thing people have started to do where you pay for the person’s food behind you), be a listening ear, or a shoulder to cry on. Whatever makes the most sense to you.
Even in these times that can seem dark, It is up to you if you let it swallow you up or keep pushing forward.
In my Intro post I used an image that I found on Facebook that was a poem about 2020. I want to quote a small part of that here. I’ll be honest and say there is a good chance you will see parts of this quote throughout my Blog for the remainder of the year because I think it’s the perfect way to look at things right now. When I was sad and trying to figure things out over the last few weeks, I found the quote and felt a renewed sense of hope for the first time in days, and ever since that moment, I go back to my page and reread the poem, and it makes me smile.
“A year so uncomfortable, so painful, so raw — that it finally forces us to grow”
There are many things I hope to do in the remaining months of the year, but right now, something I want to work on is things that will help me grow. The biggest one so far is that after five years I’m finally going back for my Master’s degree! – This is something I have wanted to do since I graduated in 2015. Still, I was fortunate with the jobs I found after graduation that when the idea of going back to school came up, I found myself feeling ‘too busy.’
Life changes that initially presented seemed like the worst possible (and although they are still sad) have opened a door that had been closed all these years due to lack of time, instead of spending time dwelling on what I could lose. I realized what I could gain, and that was a straightforward thing known as time. 2020 is helping me grow by providing me with the gift of time, and I don’t plan to waste a minute of it.
If you remember from my intro Blog, I mentioned that I had moved from Wisconsin to Texas nearly six years ago. In those six years, I’m lucky to see my intimidate family twice, sometimes three times a year. Well, my extended family only once during Christmas. With my newfound gift of time, I for the first time in years get to go back to Wisconsin when there is NOT snow on the ground (As a person who uses a scooter to get around the lack of snow is significant and is one of the reasons I moved away). This will be the second time I’ve seen my family in 2020 (I was home for New Years – so the Christmas visit counts for two different years). Before I been given the gift of time (and the fact that Covid-19 is no joke I wasn’t planning on being able to back to Wisconsin at all this year, and though I’d be lying if I said the idea of going on a plane when the virus is still running wild felt like a smart thing. (I know it’s not), but I can take all precautions possible to keep myself and those around me safe and hope that the airlines are doing the same.
Thanks to the gift of time. I will get to spend fathers day with my dad for the first time in well over eight years (I went to college about 3 hours away and going home for those things wasn’t easy) I know my dad and mom (in the case of Mother Day) or anyone’s birthday that I call or a text was enough. Still, there are times where I do have a moment of FOMO. Like the family pumpkin carving every year before Halloween, I have been face-timed for the last few years… but it’s just not the same.
Now you might wonder if I’m experiencing FOMO moments, then why don’t I move home. That would fix everything right?
In those brief moments where I wish I were there. I’m quickly reminded of all the reasons I’m not, and then I’m thankful to live in a world and a time where technology makes it so easy to see and talk to my family that I can live across the country and quickly solve most instances of FOMO. The fact is. Wisconsin is not accessible. Towns are so spread out, public transit can be limited or nonexistent depending on where you live, and don’t even get me started on the snow.
I love my family, but even they know that I will never move back there for good. Will I live in San Antonio forever? Will I move to another state? Would I move to another county? Honestly, I have no idea.
Six years ago, when I moved here, you couldn’t have told me before it happened that I would be living in San Antonio. I would have told you that you were crazy, but it happened.
That’s the other thing about time. It changes things, and in 2020 it seems to be changing a lot of things. From week to week, I couldn’t tell you what my plans are, and at this point, I wouldn’t dear make plans for more than a day or a week at a time.
There are six months left of 2020, and a lot can happen in six months, as I asked you in my last post. I would like you to join me on this adventure. There’s no map. I have no idea where the heck we are going.
But I’ll let you know when we get there!
Stay Safe, Stay Strong, Stay Positive. We will get through this. All we can do is trying to find that something positive to keep us going through the day. Even if it’s something as simple as buying a cup of coffee for someone else (or even for yourself), but if you can make someone else have a better day in the process, please do it.
I know I already said it, but I want to say it one more time. Now more then ever we need to be there for each other.
When you can. Please pay it forward and make someone else’s day. You never know what someone else is going through, and maybe a kind word is all they will need to turn there whole day around.